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Today is the day I have been putting off talking about.
Today is the day I am having major surgery.
Today is the day I find out if I have cancer or not.
If you pray, I am asking you to please PRAY for healing for me & STRENGTH to endure this unknown road I am about to travel. I ask for prayers for my family.
To update you, after my breast cancer scare a month ago, I had an appointment set up with my gyno for the next week, for an annual check-up (which had been 4 years since I'd been). At the end of the visit, she wanted some additional testing set up. I thought, "here we go again". Fast forward a week later & it ends with her calling me in to her office to get the results in person. {sigh}
She wanted to do surgery right away as I have "issues" that needed taken care of sooner than later & ended with a "oh, and based on the test results, you 'may' have cancer too".
So after today, the finality of 'no more children' will hit. It makes me sad. It ALL needs to go (unfortunately) to make sure they take care of 'all my issues'. Plus they will know when they get in there "if" I have cancer. If I do, I PRAY it is contained & they can just remove it & I can be done. That is my HOPE anyway.
My doctor has a Plan A . . . as well as a Plan B & C - just 'in case'. She will not know exactly what needs to be done & the extent of it, until she operates. The unknown sucks. The possibility of having cancer sucks. But what can I do.
I decided AFTER hearing this news to busy myself in my work & the holidays being spent with loved ones. I have made the most of this last month spending time doing what I wanted. I have had good days & some bad days with all of the mixed emotions & 'what-ifs' but most have been GOOD!
Yes, Laura. I'm out here and I'm praying for you. I have a daughter (our only child) who had a brain tumor when she was 12 yrs. old. After surgery, 6 weeks of daily radiation, and a year of chemo, her tumor was back. We were given no hope and sent on a "rush" Make a Wish trip. We made funeral arrangements and my daughter even chose the pretty pink dress she wanted to be buried in. She was 22 yrs. old on Jan. 2nd and that pink dress still hangs in my closet with the tags on it. When we returned from our "wish" trip two weeks later, her tumor was smaller. It continued to shrink for a year, until it was no longer visible on her MRI. We know first hand about the power of God. He doesn't always choose to intervene (and we know that first hand as well because we've lost a lot of little friends). We don't know why He chooses/doesn't choose to intervene, but we know He never leaves us no matter what we're going through. I'm sending a hug and will continue to lift you up until you're back!
ReplyDeleteLisa Hanger
Suwanee, GA
Lisa thanks so much for commenting here as I sure appreciate you sharing with me!=) I am happy to say that it has all worked out as I got my results back from surgery yesterday & I am cancer free! Praise God. He is the one who did all of this saving me, I know that! I am so glad to hear your situation with your daughter has a happy ending as I could NOT even imagine going through something like this with a child. I pray that she continues to be healthy for many years to come! =) Thanks so much for reaching out, your prayers & being here for me! xoxo laura
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